just one bee

IT'S FINALLY DONE.

2009-12-07T17:04:02Z

I FINALLY SET IT UP AND POSTED AN ENTRY IN THE NEW BLOG FOR THE ZINE. THE ZINE HAS BEEN RE-NAMED: THE BEE & HIVE.
CHECK OUT THE HISTORIC FIRST POST, AND THEN START FOLLOWING IT! (please and thank you!)
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lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

2009-08-06T05:25:35Z

VIC WAS IN TOWN TONIGHT! he still is, technically. he's sleeping in my bed. i told him i was going to sleep with my mom, but really i'm crashing on the couch. he's driving 12 hours tomorrow, i figured he deserved a good bed.

he's such a beautiful person. it makes me want to pinch his nose and kiss his cheeks! he's so good to talk to. no small talk bullshit. real stuff. and interesting stuff. ideas and plans and fascinations and interests. i miss having people like that nearby. i make lots of plans, and sometimes life gets in the way of making them happen. but this year, i WILL go to new jersey for thanksgiving. and i WILL get to Los Angeles this summer (Vic told me to come crash for a bit), and i WILL do one other short trip. to wherever someone will have me.

i'm exhausted of having things not work out. i have to MAKE them happen, don't you think? find a way. or else i will never ever see or do what i want to do!

and i miss people. real people. and especially you people. those of you who read this and are friends from new jersey. why can't i seem to find that again? not in florida, not here.

Vic and i were talking about the cafe when he was on his way through the first time, about how that was a small piece of perfection. it was the perfect mix of people and the perfect time in life. we shared so much together. and clicked so well. i loved those night we stayed up the entire night, drinking whiskey or wine and smoking cigarettes in the Goat's basement after Cryan's or Gaslight closed. it was so beautiful. those conversations. i have forgotten some of what was said, but i remember how it felt. to feel so connected to a group of people. to feel so loved by friends. and understood. and my friends from Seton Hall, it was the same way. like anything was up for discussion. and we could be loud or quiet or drunk or sober and it didn't matter. and we loved so many of the same kinds of things. we could be unapologetically passionate. and that's hard to do i'm finding. and that makes me so sad. i can't be passionate about something small or simple without someone looking at me like i'm insane. but i'm not. i remember how it felt to be there, with you guys, and i know it's not insane to feel that strongly. and to want to share it with someone else.

and to want to hug people and kiss them because you love them. nothing sexual. just love. the kind that is there no matter how much time passes. no matter what has happened in the time between. where are you guys? i want you all back.

I'M AWESOME...

2009-07-25T05:53:29Z

..LY CLUMSY.
i was baking cookies to send to my dad who is currently deployed in the middle east for a year. well, when i went to put away the mixing bowl, i slipped and fell... kind of, into, the pantry. the bowl hit the shelf edge and broke into a bunch of pieces, one of which managed to have a go at my wrist. awesome. it didn't even hurt at first. i looked down right away and i could see into my wrist. before it started bleeding i could see the white stuff that covers my vein, and the blue underneath it. a hair's breadth. truly. it bled a lot. and hurt like a bitch. we thought i needed stitches, but i insisted that we just keep pressure a bit longer and sure enough, it slowed down enough to bandage. i'm a good clotter. helpful for those of us who tend to fall onto and into things.

we could only fit one butterfly bandage without attaching it to other biggish cuts. bah.

but look how cute my dog is!! this is nice to look at, right?

she lays her head on the arm of her little dog couch. i always give her big hugs and she always puts her head on my knee.

the countdown.

2009-05-19T04:26:51Z

in 11 days, i will be in LA. then to vegas. then back to LA. then to San Luis Obispo.

kinda makes me wanna do the snoopy dance.

sometimes_up @ 2009-04-20T13:44:00

2009-04-20T19:48:05Z

is anyone going to want to write something for the Apocalypse issue??
if not, i'm going to have to do a lot of writing. and maybe call a few people i haven't talked to in a while.

issue #3

2009-04-17T15:29:48Z

i know i was kind of (okay, a lot of) all over the place with the second issue of TheHoneybee & Seadog, but i want to do another issue right away. this one (#2) is all printed up, so tonight i can do the folding and stapling, and start getting packages together to mail out on saturday.

for #3, i want to do the Apocalypse theme. i'm pumped for it. and everything is all planned out- the visual elements, the recipe (typed and everything, w/a picture), the top ten, the poll...

so if you still want to be a part of it (and if you don't, i understand), please write me something Apocalypse-themed. doesn't have to be literally, the-world-is-ending-where-are-my-steel-toed-boots. but just... the big endings of big things. or small things. either way it's about ending times. relationships ending, prophecies, visions, fears, the future you see, what you think will bring us down in the end, and so on and so forth. i'm excited. so much so that i don't need coffee(that much)!
*** i forgot ***
the deadline for this one will be relatively short! may 15th at the latest! i have to be able to sneakily use my school's copier for free!
let me know if you want to contribute or not so i know what i'm doing, please and thank you :]

So, even if you don't want to write anything, can i ask at least an answer to the following topics:

- your favorite futuristic/dystopic/apocalyptic/post-apocalyptic books

- what song do you want to be listening to when the world ends?

the first is the top ten, and the second is just a poll.

and i want to do this fast because i am hoping to include an interview (w/pics and links) with J about his new album coming out on May 23rd.

go listen to it: he's an old man character. it's so damn good.
www.thePoBuckra.com

i know i do

2009-04-04T05:04:38Z

hot damn! don't you want to see the world?

help!

2009-03-09T16:05:52Z

can anyone think of a movie that i can show my sociology class? i need something that captures the feel of the 90's in general, or even one specific aspect of 90s american culture. even if you think it is rated R, suggest anyway! i'm bombing on this for some reason.

what to aim for

2009-01-24T01:41:47Z

we were having a discussion earlier about this book i was poking through at the library- something to the effect of "100 most influential people who never lived"- about influential characters from literature, film, legend, myth, etc.

one of my most loved characters of all time was right there on the list- Atticus Finch. to me, aside from my granddad of course, he is truly the ideal man. he is strong and brave, in the best and most real ways. he is honest, brave, and stands up for what is right, against opposition, without being self-righteous. he is kind and caring. he is a gentle and loving, but firm father. he is intelligent and values education. he believes in equality. he is passionate and a fighter, but isn't loud and abrasive. if i were a man, i would see this character as a model of sorts. and as a woman i do try to my hardest to cultivate some of these qualities, but still, and this may sound a bit vague... there are just aspects of this character that strike me as distinctly male, that i would never be or have.

and so what i was trying to think of is this- are there are female characters in lit., film, legend, etc. that can be seen as an ideal in this way? is the feminine ideal still so in flux?
and how different would it really look from that description of Atticus Finch? of course she would be intelligent, strong, kind, passionate, etc... do those qualities somehow look different as expressed in women? are there qualities we would say the ideal woman would possess that a man would not? or vice versa?

things pop to mind... assorted katharine hepburn characters, maggie gyllenhaal as anna pascal in stranger than fiction, the paperbag princess, scout finch even... but nothing is really coming to me as solidly as the image of atticus finch. maybe he is just the human ideal. who knows.

so i'm asking you, do you have any characters that hold this place in your heart? or can you think of a female character that can be considered an ideal? or simply, what do you make of all this?

real quick

2008-11-06T19:00:39Z

i'll make a real post later about real stuff, but for now i'm proud and want to put up my website.
it's been up since saturday, and i've sold one already, and have 10 people who love my shop, so it seems to be coming along pretty well.
just thought i'd post the link so you can see how it turned out: http://thehoneybee.etsy.com/

a quick thing

2008-10-29T20:52:29Z

Copy this sentence into your LiveJournal if you're in a heterosexual marriage, and you don't want it "protected" by the bigots who think that gay marriage hurts it somehow.
Taken from technoinfidel.

from shesaid :]

2008-09-27T16:19:05Z

Please leave me a comment with the answers to these questions. Then post in your lj.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What is your middle name?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favorite and least favorite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

an anniversary!

2008-07-15T03:02:19Z

sean and i are one year married today :] it was just a really wonderful day. he made me breakfast in bed, with a toasted bagel, scrambled eggs with cheese and tomato and some fruit. he even went outside to cut a stem from the flowering sage! we lounged around and cuddled a bit, saw Hellboy II (eh.), went to the bookstore where he bought me the Shakespeare biography written by Anthony Burgess (?!?!) that i had been eye-balling, came home and cuddled some more, went out to dinner, wandered around world market where he bought me a giraffe pen that has little punching arms, and then we came back here and watched some homerun derby :] the rest of the night will be spent in except for the run to village inn for a slice of coconut cream pie! delicious!

here we are, a year ago:

m.i.a.

2008-06-05T02:55:52Z

i've been absent, i know. too many things to begin to talk about in the tiny amount of time i have. there are health problems with me, good school things with sean, moving things, family things, running 4.5 miles now (?!?!?!), zine things, and so much more. but my head is a mess, and life feels like it's moving very quickly, and i have too much to do right now to organize my thoughts.

i hope all is well out there with you guys.

Christy, CONGRATULATIONS again! i'm very very happy for you!

my nephew!

2008-05-09T22:54:06Z

everyone, meet Alexander Raymond Tyzska!

isn't he amazing?!

i can't believe i'm an aunt :]

p.s. i'll take any last submissions for the "identity" issue of the zine through the weekend! I want to start printing on Tuesday or Wednesday!

"if i had a bookstore i'd make the mystery section really hard to find"

2008-04-20T05:02:35Z

1. i love demetri martin. "i'm gonna buy a bunch of hermit crabs and make them live together. they'll say 'are those hermit crabs?', and i'll say 'not anymore...these are mingling crabs."

2. and here's something else. i didn't mention it before because i was afraid i wasn't going to stick with it this time, porque es el tema de mi vida. BUT, i've been running and doing yoga lately, and i've lost 13 pounds. 13!!! i'm pretty proud of myself. i'm really starting to like this whole running business. i'm not fast, by any means, but i like the way it feels to see myself progress in a concrete way. when i first started, i could only go for 30 minutes, and my goal was 2 miles in those 30 minutes. i usually ended up having to go until about 32-33 minutes to hit it. now, i do 3 miles, and i can do it in 40 minutes. (taking into account my little warm-up walk), i have knocked about 4 minutes off my mile and added a mile to my overall run. kick. ass. my aunt wants me to do a half-marathon with her in november.

3. sean and i have pretty much decided (95%) that we are moving to denton over the summer whether he gets accepted in the fall to UNT or not. the pay is good, about 43, it's close to my cousins, and it is close to a big city (Dallas) that has more going on. if he doesn't get accepted for the fall, he is going to apply again for the spring. it has the exact program he wants. pray,cross your fingers,throw a penny in a well for us if you would. we'd really appreciate it.

4. my seniors are done on may 15th. from then until the 24th? i will only have one class a day, speech. amazing!

5. here are some pictures from san francisco/the drive back south on PCH. it was wonderful. sean and i would really like to do that drive ourselves, but camp along the way instead of staying in hotels.

inside city lights bookstore!

along the PCH

also along PCH, but if you can see, those little dots, most of those are sea otters!

monterrey

i swear it is alive, it's just sleeping. the beach was FULL of them. isn't its face beautiful?

and, an elephant seal. HUGE!

5. how's the writing coming?

christy's one-word meme

2008-04-18T21:32:11Z

01. Where is your mobile phone? purse
02. Your significant other? dreamy
03. Your hair? long
04. Your mother? strong
05. Your father? kind
06. Your favorite thing? sleeeeep
07. Your dream last night? nonexistent
08. Your favorite drink? gingery
09. Your dream/goal? write
10. The room you're in? class
11. Your ex? over
12. Your fear? infertile
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? secure
14. Where were you last night? floor
15. What you're not? done
16. Muffins? scones!
17. One of your wish list items? books
18. Where you grew up? military
19. The last thing you did? lecture
20. What are you wearing? chalkdust
21. Your TV? tempting
22. Your pets? eventually
23. Your computer? slow
24. Your life? organizing
25. Your mood? determined
26. Missing someone? sean
27. Your car? shitty
28. Something you're not wearing? dress
29. Favorite Store? target
30. Your summer? needed
31. Like someone? love
32. Your favorite color? gray
33. When is the last time you laughed? classtime
34. Last time you cried? show

seanisatworkholycrap

2008-04-18T02:26:14Z

THE OFFICE.

OH. MY. GOSH.

the writing?

2008-04-01T19:13:21Z

so are all those contributing to the honeybee & seadog cool with "identity" as the theme for this round? (apocalypse, next!).

and can we make the cut off for this one the end of April? i want to be able to get any little edits done, layout, extra illustration, etc. done before school's out so i can sneakily use the copy machine in our teachers' lounge! free printing! and free white paper when i run out of the gray!

looking for the same stuff as last time: stories, poems, essays, comics/cartoons, whatever you got. last time was all stories and poems (beautiful ones!), but that doesn't mean other things are excluded! this time is going to have a double top ten. top ten whodunnit mysteries, and top ten worst movies recommended by my uncle abie. :]

i also have a good idea for a cover picture.

by the by, if any of you want to take a picture of yourself to put in with the contents, just send it to me via e-mail. or post it in the comments. it might be cool if you did a shot with a mask or half-hidden or something. or with something written in your forehead. you know, going with the theme...

thoughts?

SECOND VOTE

2008-03-12T19:32:55Z

so these are the ones with 2 votes each:

+ apocalypse
+ mistakes
+ gender
+ identity
+ fairy/folk tales
+ what ifs
+ alter egos

can we narrow it down again from there?

so a thing or two

2008-03-05T00:23:05Z

there was a printing hiccup with the zine that i almost didn't catch before mailing them, heh (cut and pasted wrong, OOPS! that left a page out of place). but all is fixed, and they are now mostly printed on GRAY paper, which makes me happy!!!
and they are, once again, in little bundles, tied up with yarn, the addresses are on top of each stack, and sean is going to mail them for me tomorrow! yay! effing finally, right? jebus.

anyhow, i want to start thinking about the next issue. i decided that rather than doing them seasonally, i would just number them. this batch has a name, which will seem ridiculous, but oh well. such is life.

so for the second issue...CHOOSE FROM THESE THEMES!!!
- memory
- hands
- identity
- gender
- the creative process
- losing things
- make believe
- what ifs
- the apocalypse
- guilty pleasures
- numbers
- a life of crime
- alter egos
- histories
- maps
- mistakes
- monster & ghost stories
- eavesdropping
- fairy & folktales

when i get to thinking about what i'm not doing

2008-02-12T22:04:12Z

- when i drive home from work, through the strange dusty brown haze of this city, through the crowded, bilingual billboards, one of which calls budweiser "un amigo de verdad"
and when i realize that all the films i wanted to see are gone, but never came here, and there are no decent concerts coming in the foreseeable future, art galleries are closing...
-i really miss jersey. and i really miss new york.-

- all the people, the languages, the restaurants, the culture available, it made me feel more connected to the world. to the people & places that were so far. i've had dreams of wandering through new countries, seeing sights, smelling smells, and getting lost in a collection of consonants and vowels that are arranged in an unfamiliar way, sounding like songs you hear for the first time.

- miss getting lost in neighborhoods & feeling anonymous. making small discoveries that feel new. i think it may be the fountain of youth. and that's what it means to feel young. finding more and more things that are new and surprising, until you die, and that is also something new.

- and i really, really, really miss my friends.

project done!

2008-02-03T00:33:16Z

ignore the water on the two, please. i had to wash off a little pencil.

- first i dyed them.
- then i drew the designs on them with pencil
- then i embroidered!

they're a baby present for my sister-in-law's as-yet-unknown-gendered baby! they want to be surprised. that's great for them and everything, but it made it hard to choose dye colors from what Michael's had available. and designs. and thread color. harumph! but i am happy with how they turned out, and i really hope she and mike like them.

a fun meme...

2008-01-27T07:07:16Z

from agapeflower117
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom:
2. OTP/OT3:
3. Icon/Fic Journal:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.

answer in the comments!

sometimes_up @ 2007-12-14T08:50:00

2007-12-14T16:00:48Z

we went to see MODEST MOUSE wednesday night. it was, and i really thought about this, the best show i have seen. they were phenomenal- really tight, really into it, they played a really long set (their encore was 5 songs!), and they were very personable and even conversational with the crowd. we were very close, only like 6 or 7 rows back, and i went down to the front for a while even though i had no wristband for it.

they have been one of my favorite bands for many years, and it was so good to finally see them live. they played some of my favorite songs, and in fact only played 4 or 5 songs off the new album. most of it was a good mix of older songs- fantastic.

sorry the photos are shite. it was hard to take a steady shot what with the zoom and the moving and the dark and the lights, etc.